I think you're tired because of all the back and forth. When you decide where you truly stand, a place that allows you to feel good about yourself with your boundaries firmly in place, I think you'll be energized. Right now he's controlling everything.
He says all this but what is he really doing about it? What do his actions tell you. I'm not saying cut him out of your life or treated him badly, just protect yourself.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss