MrBond thanks. I did ask again he said I already told you what was in it and that he thinks I am looking for an argument. Not true.
We have not gone to MC. I can hardly stand the thought of it right now. We did all that prior to him leaving. And, it isn't because of what I am scared to hear like some may say. I think I have hear the worst. We went to an intense marriage weekend last March and it was amazing.
It is as if he thinks he should be done proving anything to me. He feels its almost been a year,etc etc. He really hasn't slipped up yet. This would really be the first eye raiser for me.
He is just so unhappy with himself I think. THen if I question him or bring anything up it just escalates from there.
For example, he came home from work last night and I could tell he had been drinking a little . Please don't forget leading up to him leaving he drank A LOT. Lied about it and hid it. I don't like the drinking. I asked he told me yes I had a couple beers at work. Well, now how do I really know he wasn't at the bar where OW works?? I don't. I really don't think he was but how do I know. He tells me to call there. I am not that dumb. Like they will tell me the truth. Next thing you know this convo is out of control.
Bottom line: if I were to let him behave how HE wants to and do what he wants to and not talk about it or be upset then things would be great at home. I will admit I tend to go on and on. But, I know its because he either walked away from me or never got my point. I need to work on this but not sure how. Either way it isn't an excuse for him. The drinking brings back horrible memories for me. HE just doens't seem to get it. Help please.
