My day has turned out a lot busier than expected so I haven't been able to post...gonna hit and run here (again!) so I can finally get some homework done!
I met h in town last night after he had his study group. The first interaction was weird, actually, he seemed "strange" in a way that I haven't seen in a while...maybe just a bit emotionally/physically reserved? We started walking to the car and after about 5 minutes of walking he pulled me aside and gave me a knee-weakening kiss (positive #1). What I actually later wondered (don't worry...not gonna spend too much time thinking about it) is whether or not h was worried about MY initial reaction (since he'd been studying with FF and I've been putoff by that in the past) and he reacted in advance of that.....MORE supporting data for the IDEA that we create what we anticipate (by him being standoffish, I could have easily reacted badly) AND for the idea that "acting as if" is a very powerful tool.
went out for pizza and beer. Had a great time with h (positive #2)
(positive #3) h took charge of a home situation that we've been struggling with forEVER. It was SO COOL to know that it was in his capable hands!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
What I actually later wondered (don't worry...not gonna spend too much time thinking about it) is whether or not h was worried about MY initial reaction (since he'd been studying with FF and I've been putoff by that in the past) and he reacted in advance of that.....MORE supporting data for the IDEA that we create what we anticipate (by him being standoffish, I could have easily reacted badly) AND for the idea that "acting as if" is a very powerful tool.
