To be quite honest, I'm hangin on by a thread and not sure how much longer I can han on to the hopes, or desire to be married to her. She is showing such a mean and resentful side right now which I am sure is common.
Last night, she asked me to leave her money for gas. Pretty sure that I mentioned previously I had removed her from the joint account because she is consistently overdrawing the account. I told her I would ensure she had the money she NEEDS. So I left $20 for her to get gas for her van. She had a Dr appointment today so I told her I would meet her to pick up my D4. She was in the store where she said to meet when I walked up. I treated her and gave my D a huge hug. She made some small talk(real brief) and I politely and cheerfully answered and returned focus to D, asking where she wanted to eat for lunch. The W huffed and said something like, "well, I'm gonna need you to follow me to the gas station to fill my van up. The 20 only gave me about 1/4 of a tank". She went on to say sarcastically," do you know how frustrating it is to not have access to the money and need gas". I pulled out my wallet and gave her the remainder of the cash I had. About $23 dollars. I told her here, this is all I have. She also said "well you able to buy cigarettes when you need them!" I acknowledged and told her I had quit because I didn't want to, or couldn't afford that habit anymore. I went on to tell her that I was broke and I know how she felt. I told D to give mommy a kiss. She did, then ran back to me. We started walking toward the front of the store and W said that "well, I gotta walk out too". I said ok and slowed D down so we could walk out together. Then she made a comment that really pissed me off. She said "I just thought about this, but don't you need to go home now to eat, since you don't have any money?" I tried not to show my anger and said D and I will just split a small sandwich" as we were walking , I said look, I understand you think I'm the bad guy and that I cut you off but I...." she didn't let me finish. She started mumbling rude comments under her breath. The first was how I didn't know what it felt like needing gas and something else. Since she was mumbling I asked her" what was that?" and she didn't answer and peeled off down an aisle of the store. I just continued walking with daughter, acting as cheerful as possible, holding her hand and skipping away. W came out, just behind us and we went to seperate areas of the parking lot. D and I left, W was still setting in her van when we left. That was it.
Btw, to give more insight on the financial sitch, my SD15's father was killed a few years ago. In his death, SD receives approx $1500 dollars a month from Social Security. This was mostly all put in a bank for her, some being of course used for her support. Since she was and is a minor, this money was put into an account attached to my wife. When she moved out August 2011, she took control of this account and transferred all of the money, and switched the direct deposit, into her own personal account. She moved to a different state, about 8 hours away without a job, appt or anything. She lived there from Aug through December without a job. She racked up bills, credit cards, and did whatever for those 3 months. She worked a couple of temp jobs, then found a part time job in late Dec. she moved back home in April and since then, still uses that money to pay the debt she racked up while gone. Supposedly anyway. I have asked numerous times since she came back, and I thought we were doing well, where the money went. She always said that "it all goes to bills". I'm not quit sure. She had complete access to my bank, and continuously spent from that as well. That's why I had to remove her from the accounts. I pay every bill from the "marriage" before seperation and post.
I know I'm rambling now, but if anyone is kind enough to read and provide feedback.