An Exercise For Forgiveness

[sage]

Dagny and Mockers...thanks so much for the kind words! I SO appreciate you letting me know that you see me as a success story! I am so grateful to Michele and DB/DB and all the folks here for helping me get my m. back to even better than it was before!

And, I understand that I must someday take the "leap of faith" to declare this publicly as a "success" -- I'm just inches shy of being there...but TBH, I still have a block of work that needs to be done -- on me, for me, for us. I think h would actually hate hearing that "you have to WORK on yourself? Ugh" but I still too often find myself in the grips of fear...of the past...of the future...to really and truly know that I have Db'd myself to where I need to be.

The forgiveness work is helping...and the ABCDE stuff that I posted a few days ago is TREMENDOUS! I spent some time yesterday journalling some very negative ASSumptions I was having about work and it was SO powerful to write these things down and challenge myself to think differently.

I am unbelievably grateful for the wonder of my m ... for evey minute of every day that I have spent with my h -- good, bad or otherwise. And I'm so grateful to him for HIS strength and HIS work and HIS growth.

Anyway...I'm not trying to discount the success that I do feel right now...I just have a piece of work in progress!

Positives:
1. H had study group last night. I went out to dinner with a friend. We got home early enough to hang out together for a few hours. h asked me to "snuggle on the couch" and then said "Is anything better than this". Well, NO!

2. h asked me if I was feeling relieved about the car sitch being resolved...I really appreciate him treating my worries so well, normally...he's been so sensitive to the way that I feel!

3. We've got a date tonight after he has class to celebrate his amazing success at school!

4. Lots of good emails, phone calls yesterday!

Sage