So there was no discussion at all. After my daughter went to bed, he watched TV and I cleaned up the kitchen with my head phones on. There was idle chit chat but that was about it. He said good night and then went to bed. We had idle chit chat again this morning and I sent him a text about possible house showing tomorrow night, but that is it.
This is worse (maybe) than him saying something - the not knowing, whether he read it or not or threw it out. I don't know why he would have kept the card if he threw out the letter. I am overthinking everything!!! and the anxiety I have 24 hours a day is awful. But then I think "this is what he felt like" when he thought I didn't love him anymore.
Im scared of the 180s in my situation - I was absent and non affectionate and distant. My 180 I think is to now be there for him and support him as best as I can. My therapist told me to try a bit of affection - like a rub of the arm or back if he passes, just non challantly but otherwise there has been no contact between us at all in over a month.
Thankfully I am able to get into see my therapist tomorrow now, hopefully she can shed some light.
