I think I see the picnic!

[2chiquitos]

Thank you busting. Hugs to you too. It's as if this nightmare is finally coming to an end. Thank GOD!

Thank you LITB for checking in on me. I would rather bring it up (again) but in front of MC because I have tried to tell H that I'm not detaching to hurt him. He feels otherwise.

I decided that if MC and H agree I want him to stop coming over in the mornings and evenings. He can come everyday from 5-7pm. I know he won't like this because he teaches at the gym at 7pm and wants to take S4 with him. But I don't want him to come over in the evenings. Only from 5-7 since that's when I can leave or he can take the kids.

Our house is not big enough where I can separate myself from them when he's over. When he was here on Sun I stayed in the bedroom and felt trapped for 2hrs.

When he came over for breakfast on Sat n Sun I made them breakfast and went to the backyard for an hour. I felt trapped. I want to be able to walk around the house and not feel that heavy tension.

He kept trying to pull me into conversations either about the kids or something else cuz he HATES it when there's silence between us.

I was crying about it tonite. I feel so worn out. I can't continue another day like this.

I'm starting to sound like a WAS...