JS, you know those dreams that we all have, when we wake up and go "oh thank God, it was just a dream"...

This isn't one of those.

I don't know how many times I thought to myself at the beginning of it all, that maybe I would just wake up... and then I thought, maybe my W would just wake up... and then I realized... ain't nobody sleeping...

All you can do is make your new normal. And it sounds like you're settling in to that. Of course you'll cycle. And as we always say, things will get better. No matter how that looks.