best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

Hello everyone, just some more rambling. I know there are similarities in most everyone's sitch's on here, but there are a lot of varying dynamics as well. It seems like in a majority, the WAS can be pretty angry and say some mean things. I don't know if I am not far enough into DB, and my sitch, to get that out of my wife, or if always being pleasant when I see her keeps it from coming out. Maybe I won't ever see that side.

I have no idea what my next step would be to draw her in, or do I continue with the 37 rules and let her come to me. Not that I am looking to pursue her. I know for a new relationship to work she has to want it as much as I do. Just wondering if there are subtle things that can be done?

Usually a couple times a day I seem to have great moments of clarity, where I really feel at peace with myself and my sitch. I suppose I need to feel that at all times before I am ready to even start a new R.