DB coach always asks, "What will she see that's different?" I have to force myself to think about that. It's not a normal train of thought.
I'm on the road again this week. Hot pink cape flapping as I whip along on my motorbike...
I got a bit of an affectionate hug this morning before I left. I suspect that P misses the affection but is trying hard at times to not mislead me. I keep noting the exceptions to the new physical distance regimen. I also need to remind myself that P being nice is a sign of P wanting to be a nice person - nothing more. And P being affectionate is a sign of P appreciating physical warmth - nothing more.
I've been doing a pretty good job of, well, not really thinking about things. It'll only mess with my brain and then I'll act weird and cause more problems. I mean, regardless of what she's thinking, I can't expect her behavior to be entirely consistent (whose is?) so I'm not going to stress myself trying to extrapolate off micro-trends. Just be present. Enjoy what is, or deal with it, as appropriate.
We had a convo today that demonstrated P being more up front about some things that stress her. That gave me the opportunity to address it and demonstrate that I want to find a solution that doesn't feel stressful to her. It's encouraging to me that she's been doing some personal growth work, too, though she hasn't talked much about it.
I really should see about another coaching session...
