Had a great weekend with h...lots of positives! Friday I met him after class and we went out for drinks and dinner. I asked h for help with a problem that I've been having at work and he came thru BIG TIME! I love when he listens so intently to me and shares his thoughts and ideas.
Sat. we each did our own thing during the day -- me doing errands, etc, and him studying. we went to see a movie and had dinner afterwards. Good times!
Sunday we went to the gym. I went to the store afterwards while h studied. We had some fun when I got back then we went off to watch the Pats play with his friends from his former job. We had a great time (GO PATS!) and got home earlier enough to snuggle on the couch, watching some shows. H was very thoughtful and loving all day...made me a plate of food, sat close to me on the couch at friends house, etc.
I do need to get a little bit of self-pity off of my chest (so I don't wallow in it!). When we were at friend's house last night we were hanging out with the couples that ow and her h used to also hang out with. At one point during the afternoon...all of the guys were in the living room watching the game while the other wives were in another room -- the three of them have all had babies in the last few months and they were doing baby things I was sitting in the living room, separate from the guys, just watching them...and I was thinking...ow was friends with all of these men...she tried to insert herself into each one of their lives in one way or another...she was flirty and forward...all of the wives had an issue with her...and each of the h's told us that we were overrecting, that she was just a friend of theirs...why was it MY h that got involved with her? why was HE the one that responded in that way? what's so broken about our m? our r? me? him? that got us down this path. I dunno...it just bummed me out...I felt like I was caught in this dream state...4 couples...why us?
OK..I can let that go now...thanks for listening!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.