Thanks DB Mod and Arsene for chiming in. I've been tossing this around in my head all weekend... And I'm still not much closer to an answer. It's hard to tell if the "Darkness" is working at all externally (which I know isn't at all the point of going dark) but I'm sure it's working okay for me.
However, I'm starting to think that the things W has said over the last few months (about me not fighting, me never reaching out etc) could be damaging any chances I may have to reconcile... At least without her knowing the REASON why I'm not reaching out...
BUT, at the same time, my actions ARE speaking loudly and I'm feeling much more detached than I have ever before.
So I won't be acting on this either way until I'm more sure of what will work the best. I thank you all for your advice here, as it's been very helpful, and as DB said, I need to make my own decisions knowing my sitch.
