You're feeling very raw. After the rawness you will slowly heal. It's a vicious cycle. I completely understand how desperate you feel. You have absolutely no control. Nothing we say will help.

Find something you do have control of. For now start to obsess about it. Something that won't require too much damage control after.

Look up the most healing practices.
I think it's yoga, meditating and gardening are the top 3. Obsess over all 3 of them. Get the self esteem workbook on amazon.

Build jks back up again. Stop allowing others to tear her down. She's a phenomenal person!

We're all here for you. Many many hugs!!!

M 42 H 39
T10 (-2yrs separation)
S8 D5
DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA)
Reconciled 6/2013
Separation in works 1/2017