Still together but trying to save this

[PeteWyo]

I'm sorry I have not been posting about the progresses I have made, I have been tending to post on here when I am thinking about everything and I almost forgot! I have been going to an IC and of course she is trying to figure out what the trigger is to my anxiety (if there is one). She also said that there may not be a trigger, which I believe to be the case but obviously I'm not a therapist. Anyway I have been getting out of the house more than ever. I am going out and bumming around, eating breakfast out of the house. I have been running down by the river in a place that is unknown to me. I have been putting myself in all sorts of situations where I would have been uncomfortable or anxious. I am trying to hit this thing head on. I am reaching out to friends and genuinely listen to their stories and being involved. It got bad to the point before where I was afraid to be anywhere without my cell phone because I was afraid that if something happened I wouldn't be able to call for help so I have been purposefully leaving my cell phone at home when I can. I have to have it a lot of times for work but that is another issue. I feel great and less anxious. It will take some time to unprogram myself and bad habits but it is working and it is great! The single best thing that has helped me is opening up to everyone (including myself) and admitting I had an anxiety problem. Getting that off my chest and having a support network has allowed me to not feel so alone in my anxiety. Just takes time I guess.