ForeverYoung, longrun and AnotherStander, and all,
Thanks so much for the support, encouragement and information. I really greatly appreciate it all.
ForeverYoung,
Your a spot on with saying that no matter what, she will do what she wants regardless of where I am. (Below I will explain) Like I said, she seems to be fine with the thought that we remain roomates forever. I cant do this. I know that she is not going to move, so my thoughts always drifted to me leaving, forcing her to "grow up" and assume the role of a responsible mother again....After thinking it through though, me walking out would make me the irresonsible one. Even though my plan was different because I still planned on doing the grocery shopping, school shopping, getting my kids every couple of days, etc... Anyway you slice it though, i would be giving up my dignity and self respect if I left.
AnotherStander,
She was already a WAW (physically) when she moved a few states away last year. When she came back, I had very high hopes of making it work. I approached this ALL WRONG. I gave it what i thought was the right approach, but proved to be a failure so I am back in the same sitch. Now, she is an emotional WAW.
So, Update/Journaling: Yesterday, the W had her internship. She was gone all day to training from 9-4. She didnt get home from the training until about 6 or so. Not sure what she did after the training, and I didnt ask. When she got home I came upstairs from the basement and I was dressed up, quit nicely I should say. She made a comment to the effect of "Wow, gotta hot date?" I chuckled a little and just said no, I have plans. I really didnt have plans but she didnt know that. She made a comment about my shirt, which was her favorite color. I again chuckled and said how my 4yo D picked it out for me when I took her shopping. She made comment about how she taught her well. I grabbed my keys and said see you later. I gave all the kids a hug and told them I would see them later and said "love you" to them. Then I said see you later and left. I drove around for a bit then meet a couple of friends for dinner. After dinner, I still had no plans to go home. Curiosity did get the best of me however and I drove by my house at about 8:30 just to see if the wife was here. Of course she wasn't. I stopped in to make sure the kids were ok. I talked with D15 for a minute and told her I had forgotten something. She had said that the W had just left to go to Miss "A's" house. I said ok, and told her I would see her later and call if she needed anything. Thants when I realized that ForeverYoung was so right in saying that she will do whatever she wants regardless. She has D15 to use as a babysitter.
Anyway, still without plans I went down to a local pub for a beer. I sat there and sipped on my beer. I have to admit something that did make me feel great and reinforced I would be ok. A very attractive younger lady struck up a conversation with me while setting at the bar. We actually talked for a couple of hours. Before any bashing happens, I in no way attempted to pick her up, get a phone number or any of that. If anything, I kinda assumed a "Daddy Role" and provided her a little career guidance. Never the less, It helped me get a little confidence back in case I am ever back on the market. I said good night to the young lady and wished her well. Still not ready to come home, I went to breakfast at a local all night place. I ate and took my time, and got home at about 1 a.m. When I pulled in the driveway, i was shocked to see the MBR lights still on, as well as the LR. When I came in the door (I was whistling, and jovial), the wife was stirring in the kitchen and my d15 was still awake as well (Not sure why W let her stay up that late, but didnt say anything). I told my D15 Good night because she was headed up to bed. The W WOULD NOT SAY A WORD and seemed to act agitated. I stirred around a little turning off some of the lights. This akward silence lasted about 20 seconds. I said well, good night as I was going downstairs to bed. She did not say a word!
