Thanks again. I backslid yesterday when he showed up. Basically it's my mouth. Really am better if I don't see him. I was nasty and shouldn't have been. I have to see him on Tuesday evening but have no intention of making any sort of contact before then. None. I really do not want to talk to him them but likely it will be unavoidable. Next few days are just doing things around here, studying, and I have to sub at a local school. That will be a new experience for me and I am looking forward to it.:-) Again, I don't think he is seeing anyone. Really it seems to be depression and MLC. I need to keep repeating the goals to help me. Especially the 180's and acting as if. Acting as if is a big one. I am making plans to take the kids to do some things I have been wanting for a bit. Many of them are things he refused to do in the past. I also think I am going to take pics of them having fun and put them up where he can see them. Not only because I would love to see them but really maybe he needs to see what he is missing out on too! Now if anyone knows what kind of power saw I should get for basic projects your help would be appreciated. I have had several things I want to do and asked him for his help with that never got done. I'm not going to nag or blame. I am going to do !!! Also the whole keeping busy will help!
