Did 50 mile cycling with the group in the morning. Really enjoyed their company it was fun, no one knew my sitch so my environment pushed the sitch on the side.
I GAL'd today with the kids (props to 25yrsmlc for reminding me GAL doesnt have to be by myself). I googled some freeebie stuff I can do around town that is kid friendly. I took the kids with me. I asked W, I really wanted her to go but she said she's not feeling well and so I said "ok we'll see you later"
The trip with the kids was a blast, I really enjoyed it. Although I felt like incomplete, the 3 kids really made me felt good. GAL also made me aware that I can do this, this might be my life down the road if W doesn't come back to M. I'm realizing it's really not that bad.
We came home lights all out it was dark inside house, I carried s3, he was exhausted and fell asleep on the drive home. We came in and W is using laptop. This is when the bad thoughts came to mind that she's talking to LLOM (low life OM) I'm thinking now she will be careful on her tracks so, I think the only way to do this is through Skype? Can someone please enlighten me on how Skype work?
Anyways, I felt like interrogating her like last time. But you know what, this time is different. I was able to gather my thoughts and let go. I thought that maybe the more I ask the more she'll feel excited about her A, I mean the excitement of getting away with it. Can someone point out if WAS' tend to feel this excitement?
So I'm taking it one day at a time, and today I didn't le my suspicions get a grip of me plus I did a great GAL and didn't want to mess that up. Oh lightbulb, maybe that's why its important to GAL.
Your thoughts and comments are welcome.
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
