Thank you labug. I get it now. What it really means to detach. It means to accept whatever comes your way. Let go and stop trying to control the sitch. Let God take care of it.
Now I know why it took me so long to get here. I was so afraid that letting go meant pushing him away and him not wanting to come back. But it's more about me having more respect for myself.
I can finally put my head down tonite and know that I did everything I could to save my R. I can look my kids in the eyes and tell them that I tried. God knows I tried. But I had to let go of the rope and let him continue on his journey.
I truly wish him all the happiness in the world.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017