Well, this week was my 3 month self check-in. Lots of reflection and old brushed aside feelings felt and examined.
I discovered there are chunks of anger, bitterness floating around...taking them on in manageable pieces. I don't want them there.
I see progress, not only in our sitch, but within her, which is most important right now...she needs to establish her inner peace, find her inner self, before a full R can happen.
Her selfishness annoys and hurts me, but I know it is hopefully just a temporary phase required for growth into the butterfly she is trying to become. I can let it be during this process.
The holidays are coming up, I will not take away from our kids any possible enjoyment...the last 2-3 holiday seasons have been awful, especially last year. They deserve the best I can provide.
I'm in for another 3 months. Quitting is off the table.
The last 3 months since last check-in just flew by. I can't believe I have lasted, grown as much as I have...I guess it is true that you never get more than you can handle from God.
Now, I do ask him to hurry her along a bit faster...lol...she's taking her sweet old time. But better thorough and slow, than fast and half-assed. I do not want to repeat this journey, or know if I would even be able to.
But I can handle this one.
Have a great weekend all!
T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
