So I am back from my trip away and just had an amazing experience with a friend that has enabled me to start to focus on some inner healing rather than my sitch - yay!
They picked me up from the airport and we sat chatting in the car outside the house. I confessed to my spewing behaviour during H's sailing trip. They were shocked and as I tried to explain my abandonment trigger they finally said "Do you think you're not wanted?" and those exact words resonated with me immediately as the words I have told my Self about my early life. It's my very own personal strapline/jingle (I work in marketing)
So now I know what my primary goal starting this w/e is, I need to take the facts of the story about my beginnings and create a new strapline for my Self.
I think if I start here I can hopefully turn the decibels down of my abandonment alarm.
I'm excited to do this work.
Tumbling (strapline to follow!)
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
