I can do this. I can be the strong, confident person I was.
In all seriousness, MrsD, I honestly believe you can, too. There is an earnestness about you -- a strength and tenacity behind the desperate fear (only when it relates to your ex-H) -- that is evident. And you have a healthy level of introspection, which I have always felt was a necessary trait found in all successful DB'ers (too much of this leads to "navel-gazing," however . . . "introspection" = "GOOD"; "navel-gazing" = "BAD").
Add to that your strong faith, and I think you have a very solid foundation of emotional strengths on which to build, I really do.
And as you can probably tell my now, I'm NOT the type to blow smoke up your butt if I didn't think that were true!!!