Divorced Thrd #6/Long Road Ahead

[Mrs D]

Thanks Arsene and Carnac - you guys seem to be my biggest cheerleaders.. I do appreciate you guys so much.
Arsene - I think at one time I was obsessive about X as well. I guess because I had him one day, the next - poof. Gone. And I just dont understand how he could go from wanting us, to not the very next week. I guess if I could understand that part it may be easier. Maybe not. I continue to remind myself I have 12 years. She has 2 months. We will get through it Arsene. We just have to continue to believe.

A GF of mine sent me a picture she had pulled from FB. It sorta hit home alittle. "At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, and that the only next possible step to do is stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. Its not like you are giving up, and its not like you shouldnt try. Its just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, not matter how hard you try, will never be." Yep Carnac - its my desktop background. Im not giving up. But I am letting him figure out what he needs to figure out.

Speacking of which, he called this morning to ask if I could take C tomorrow since he has to work. Even offered me babysitting money. I told him that I would and that the money wasnt necessary. Still being that laid back, do anything for anyone person he fell in love with. Day 13.