Well, today's the day.... 10th anniversary... H got up early and went to the gym, oddly, he usually doesn't do two days in a row. So I got up and went over and knocked on his door, said, "Happy Anniversary" and handed him the card I had for him. He looked at it like it was something that would bite him and said, "I can't... I don't think there's really anything to celebrate..." In attempts to stay strong I didn't say anything else just reached the card further to him. He did take it, huffed and I just walked back to "my" room.
Now he has gone to the gym, and I took a peak, he didn't open the card, didn't even take it with him, it's lying upside down on the bookshelf in that room.... of course my heart is broken, not that I was actually expecting anything, but I knew this day would be hard...
I did cry after he left.... actually if I'm perfectly honest still now, but hopefully I can get it all out before work... So he's still securely lodged in MLC.... but this lighthouse is still trying to stay strong... God has a plan.... just wish I knew what it was...
