busted affair again!

[newman7977]

Ok really feeling good right now, it's like I'm a high school kid courting a girl again lol.

I know this might be nothing at all but, I wanted to journal so I can refer back to this later. Perhaps I'm starting to finally get the 180s you guys have been mentioning here.

-Started a 180 in the morning by not watching W change clothes. I think this really surprised her since I left and went to another room, whet before I would've stuck around.

-balancing my contact with w...yesterday I barely spoke with her but I listened, I knew she said she'll be busy at work today so I sent her a text to have a good day, even with the busy shedule. I know I shouldn't initiate text but I think I have to balance the communication since this is her complaint that I never bother to contact her. So the plan. Will text her when she least expect it.

- continue with NO physical contact I think that maybe a tiny spec, she's starting to miss me. I'm really avoiding physical contact but at the same time im being nice about it.

-continue 180 w kids, work w s13 with homework. Bought d17 medicine she's got the flu, I offerred to go to the store cause w has big headache. I hang out with s3 in the backyard.

-had a good Convo with w, she told me how busy she been at work, I listened and ask her questions. We had positive interactions. This is another 180 to Keep creating positive environment with her. I think I read this here in DB.

-here's he best part, there was a big bug in the room and w ask d17 for me to go to the room and to take care of the bug which I did, I was excited but didn't show just played it cool . Because Lately --no way she would've ask me.

- I sensed a little flirting from w while I kill bug..:I was gonna ask her if she wants me to give her massage on her head since she has a headache but I think Its not time yet, so I continue to back off and left the room.

So here i am journaling and two days ago I was p!ssed as heck! Roller coaster?? Am I getting sucked in again? Who knows but I'm enjoying this moment.

Tomorrow got to think of another 180 to start a good day. I can't text since I did that today...ummm maybe I'll show up with her favorite pastry create the unexpected at the end of the day not in the morning. I'll try that.

I welcome all your thoughts and suggestions.


Newman