Thank you all for your input and suggestions. I do feel better, especially since now I do know the truth, but it still is tough knowing that even if we talk to each other he still isnt coming home to me and his family. In my analytical mind I'm thinking that his new sitch cannot last. She's got young kids and our kids are grown. Why would a 58 yr old want to start raising someone else's kids? So I'm thinking it's all about the sex and when that fizzles he will come to his senses. So I exercise and go out sometimes with friends and go to work. Am I doing better than last week? I think definitely yes, but then I get into that "funk" again and really miss him. I have been telling him though that I have a joyful heart and I'm not angry anymore. He seems to react positively to that but its not 100% that way.
Yes, this is probably harder than if he had died. Im off tomorrow and I'm busy. Will try to be busy over the weekend too. Send hugs; I'll send 'em right back atcha!
M-59 H-58 2 S, 1 D 2 Gr. Ch. T 20 YRS M 17 YRS ILYBINILWY 4/21/12 Caught H and OW 5/25/12 H Left 6/5/12
"Do not regret growing older...It is a privilege denied to many."
