Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

Thanks labug. I think that is what I am going to do. There is a chance our friend may tell him I am going, but he might actually feel better knowing I am there with someone else and won't be clinging to him.

H went out for a motorcycle ride with the guys tonight. At first I was not real happy about it, but then I realized that I don't have to cook a big meal and can relax a little bit. This is an issue that would have caused me to blow up in the past because he is once again doing his own thing and not reciprocating to me, like I know the other guys on the ride do. When I talked to him about it earlier today, I told him that I really hoped he could go and have fun.

I'm noticing another dynamic. When he is out of town, he is a different person towards me. He was out of town during the day and when we talked today, he was very sweet and had a pleasant tone of voice.

I ran into him by accident at home this afternoon. Neither one of us usually goes home during the day. I forgot my socks and he had just come home from out of town. He avoided all eye contract with me. When I tried to confirm that he would be gone for dinner, his tone of voice was different. I'm not taking it personally as I know he had a 2 hour drive and was tired.

Just curious as to why the treatment doesn't carry over. It did for one day after he was gone for 4. I still think some of it is fear that I am going to go crazy on him for something and he's waiting for it to happen. It hasn't since the beginning of June.