Thanks for the rules. I've had this list before and found it independently myself also. Guess I wasn't ready to practice it but my low feelings and breaking down last night infront of one of my friends shook me up. Am not gonna allow myself to live like this any longer. My wife is so deep into her affair and her emotions are so high and strong for the OM right now there's no point in my letting that effect me any longer. This is her choice. I could wonder "how might that end" and I do and I have been wishing for failure with the OM. Either he's an ass or a wimp. These are all thoughts we've all had am sure. Last night as I broke down it was coupled with a fear this time. A fear that if I keep this up its really going to leave me pretty messed up or worse taking a breakdown. Am not going to be one if they people. Am going to accept my powerlessness. Control me. Be happy in time with me (genrally I am). I don't have to condone this infidelity and am not but I am going to look at my part in the break down of my marriage. See what I find and accept the past and move on.
I could easily go into a list of offensive words to describe my wife but I don't want that. But I do need to remember the women I love is not the women who's treating me this way.
Am not giving up but am letting go (purely for my own health and mental health). Am not going to suffer this any longer. Right or wrong aside no one should feel this bad about themselves.
Kevin.
Your the man and don't forget that. Let her go for now and take care of yourself. Affairs almost NEVER last.
