Nothing new today. Day#12 NC. PMA is still low. Not sure if its because Im so flipping busy at work - which I guess is a good thing, but at the same time I feel like I need a break from being SO busy. I just dont feel like Im getting anywhere, finishing any of my projects, and getting pulled in 18 different directions. Ah well. Job security.
PMA might also be low because I see nothing changing in the relationship. Its not that I expected that he would be reaching out to me other than C, but I just miss him. I feel as if Im doing better with NC, detaching - but its not keeping me in view... and I dont want him to forget about me, and what we had, and could still have. I havent been around him since two Fridays ago when I stayed the night. He brings C home, drops him off, and leaves. He doesnt even come to the door anymore. And like I said before, it scares me they could be getting closer. Mutaul friends still dont see it. Im not giving up on us. Im still in the background working on me hoping maybe he will see the light sometime soon.
I guess Im going into town shopping with a GF of mine tonight. C needs some things. Hopefully retail therapy will bring the PMA up some. Happy Thursday.
M:43/ H:39 T:12/ M:9 S8, D15 M affair(one night): 2/09 M EA: 2/12-7/12 D:6/7/12 H: GF since 7/24/12
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