Thank you so much guys, I appreciate your words of support.
I have found strength that i never knew I possessed in the last year, no doubt I will find more. I realise I made many mistakes in my marriage, I was going through my own "transition" but it didn't involve infidelity just personal growth.
Like all LBS I wish I had a time machine, but I still wonder how on earth I was meant to ommunicate with someone who couldn't articulate their feelings. I realise I am a control freak and this whole s**tty ride leaves me way outside my comfort zone.
So, I have ordered lots of books, I have dug out the DB book and started reading it again. I am trying to exercise each day, eat when I can, (I need to lose at least 40lbs so that's not a massive issue ) and I am doing relaxation/meditation.
Truthfully I know I will be ok, I just don't want to love him still!!!!!
