Hello All . What a week . Some of my posts dont seem to have been posted so i'll just do a quick re-cap . Last friday my W went to a comedy concert out of town . We were both supposed to go , but about 3 weeks ago she said she'd askedher girlfriend from work to go as she was at a low ebb .I was very hurt by this but said well they're your tickets so take who you like . Last thursday the night before i asked where they were staying , just polite in normal conversation . She said " oh just a cheapy hotel near the centre , you know ". That night when she'd gone to bed , i checked her email , she didnt know i had guessed the password .Anyway i saw a hotel conformation for a hotel room in a really fancy hotel , king size bed 2 adults , to a mans name from her work . The conformation was under his name . There was nothing really explicit in the email itself , it actually looked quite business like . I stupidly confronted her as i was heartbroken , she said that her friend who she was going with (the girl ) knows this man and as hes a big shot manager gets great business rates for hotels , but its a bit naughty because this wasnt business so they could all get into trouble if it came out . She point blank refuses that she is having an affair , even swearing on our childrens lives . that was that . I said i needed proof that her and the girl were going so asked for photos of them at the venue and the hotel room . She did this .(part of me wonders wheather she had to rope this girl in at the last minute to go with her story on the friday ) When she came back on saturday , she told another lie about how she got there . I knew she'd got a lift down on the friday after work presumably with her friend but got the train back on saturday . She said she got the train down aswell , which was a lie . She says she lied about it because that was her original plan which she told me before , about getting the train . She said she lied about the hotel because she knew i'd hit the roof if i knew it was booked in a mans name . Shes very frightened of me ringing this man who she claims she hardly knows as it would get the 3 of them into trouble and she could lose her job . I wonder if its because she doesnt want her affair being exposed? So i dont know what to think is she ? , isnt she ? We argued on sunday and she left with our D's to go to her friends house . We ve spoken quite a bit this week , she was very angry initially but has calmed down a bit know . Tonight we are forced to share our house together for 1 night since it all happened . She is very reluctant , i can understand why things are very volitile at the mo . We are still going to councelling next friday together , but she says that she just wants to be on her own , although she will listen and talk to the councellor . She says she just doesnt love me , its all her fault . When i asked if the councellor could fix our marriage or help us go our separate ways what would she prefer , she said to fix the marriage , but they cant garantee that and she cant change her feelings. Theres been other little things to , classics like sexier underwear , i see she bought some on the monday before the concert , she says it was cheap , and the receipt says its cheap to . But i cant help wondering now . Do i ask her about the stuff she bought on monday , she doesnt know i know that . Man my mind is all over the place, need some guidance . I hope everyone else is keeping strong Talk soon HH
