Not sure I'm doing this right but here goes Ive been married for 17 years , and have two sons ages 16 and 13, its been half my life with this man and I think he is not in love with me anymore, He says he feels left out since starting working away from home five years ago, lately he has been gone three months and it's taking a toll, Atleast we are talking now without arguing but it feels like I'm walking on egg shells and it just feels fake and emotionless, He will not say he loves me or have a good night or good morning, just get this or that done, pay this bill and then I gotta go, click. I can understand how he feels left out but he has not made an effort to show the kids effection or do stuff with them without yelling or being bossy, so they just try to stay out of his way when he is home, and it hurts him, but his Dad was not a good example of fatherly love so how is he gonna know what to do. I don't know what to do , I feel like I'm in a loveless marriage , and the more I think about it I think he is cheating on my as well, he is really into his looks and bought sexual performance pills, hello he has not been home in three weeks WTH is he needing that for!? Anyway I'm just trying to be strong for the kids if I move out it will disrupt their schooling and I basically don't have anywhere to go anyhow. What's worse is he is going on a hunting trip oct 4th but all he will do is party and I assume screw whoever over there! I'm so freaked out and confused, it's really humiliating to think he is cheating. I hope I'm wrong but all the signs are clear He dosnt show affection or talk to me like a normal person I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing to set him off. He always threatens divorce if I don't do what he wants Im a pathetic mess I know
