Nothing new to journal it's the same weeknights. I'm generally doing my 180s after work by helping kids with homework and playing w s3 in the backyard even only for about 30mins.
It's been I.5 weeks since no physical interaction with the W, I'm just really trying to be patient. There are lots of moments where I just want to give her a hug but I know I will just get hurt with her rejection.
So we resume with the roommate status. I give her space by leaving the room wherever she is, but I still talk to her and try not to show my sadness.
My question is, what if she's really liking this? She express to me before that she doesn't mind as long as I don't touch her. Well that's not ok with me, I really don't know how long I can stay like this.
Also, the female co-workers are starting to sound good to me because when I talk to them I can feel a better interactions. I just miss that and sometimes I feel good talking to other people are nice to talk to except my W. I don't know maybe because there are hurt feelings associated with W. anyway I won't do anything stupid like start an A because I know how much it hurts.
But I can't help wonder that being single probably not too bad at all...
So what kind of signs should I be looking for? How do I know she's ready?
So 1.5 weeks in of giving space and no physical touching...
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
