Here we go!

[alone]

It has been a little over over a year since we have been piecing our marriage back together. It has been an great improvement from the last couple of years that we had together. But there has been set backs and things that I am not sure of anymore. I used to think that we would be together until we died. Now I can not say that I hope that one day that I can. I belief that my husband really wants this marriage to last. He is always showing me how much that he cares about me and that he wants me to be happy. It is me. I need to be able to except all that great things that are going on in our marriage, but I keep thinking about the bad times and how I can trust that he really wants this marriage. Every thing he does and says is that he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with. I just can't see this anymore. I do love him and hope that we can make this marriage last a lifetime. I guess the hurt that I have been through has made me question everything in my marriage.

I hope that other people that are working on piecing their marriage back together, knows that it is not an easy thing even when both of you are committed. It takes time to gain the trust again. Just keep moving forward in your life for yourself and your family.

I hope that I am able to forgive totally and move on. I want to be back to where I believed that we are going to be together forever.