Still together but trying to save this

[PeteWyo]

Had a good day today I think. Got home went for a nice long run, cut the grass, went to the gym. I keep asking everyone if they want to hang out so I can get out of the house but unfortunately all of my friends here are/were her friends. So they are all very close to this. Even so, they don't want to talk about it any more than I do. They are always just busy doing things with their spouses (who are also my friends). Kind of stinks hanging out with a bunch of happy married couples. So I have to keep busy.

My whole life here revolved around my wife. I was planning on moving back towards family shortly before I met her. Now I have a house and a job here and not much else. I guess I wasn't really living my life these past 6 years. Too terrified by my anxiety issues. Now that i am finally addressing those issues I don't have a whole lot to do! Sweet irony.

I am going to IC tomorrow. Not sure if I am going to talk about my anxiety or about how to move on without my soul mate. Maybe both.