Time for an Introduction...and Thanks

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I am glad it's going by slowly. You're right, I don't think I could have handled this if it went quickly. It wouldn't have given me the time I needed (still need) to find out who I am and how I want to live my life.

I AM better off today than I was 2 years ago. I did not believe I would be when I first started lurking on these boards. I felt my life was over and I guess in a way it was. My OLD life was over. I realize that a lot of what I'm doing now, taking care of the kids alone, working full time, planning their activities, famliy get togethers, etc. are things I was doing when my H did live here. The lack of participation on his part has become more magnified.
As he is now, he is not the man I want to be with. I know I need to forge a new relationship with him. I would like to keep the parts of him that were good and kind. Before he started acting so out of character and becoming someone the people closest to him aside from me don't even recognize. I still see glimpses of that man from time to time. I do have to fight thinking he is only acting out of character with me and when he's with OW he is the man he was. Maybe he is, it's not for me to worry about. It just creeps in at times.

How are YOU doing? I've read part of your story and it seems it happened very quickly. How are you getting along these days? Do you interact with your Ex W at all? How i that now?