Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

I went to the Y today and rode a bike for 30 minutes, and tonight I went out and bought some new running sneakers.

I did an ok job of trying not to be clingy today. I called H about a business matter during the day and he did answer, and we talked about it.

But I just did something I realized afterwards I need to resist doing. I sent him a text to see if he wanted me to bring him a package to the airport. His response was not necessary. I need to stop offering to do stuff like that for now.

I also discovered another area where I've hurt his feelings and will start to try to correct. 2 years ago we bought me a jeep and fixed it up. It is very special to me because H put a new engine in and put a lot of work into it.

2 weeks ago he told me someone wanted to buy it. I told him that it was special to me and I wasn't ready to sell it. Tonight the person that wants to buy it told me that when he told H he wanted to buy it, H said he would get me to sell it because I don't drive it.

I used to drive it every weekend and I guess got lazy. It is at the airport, so I have to go there to get it. I asked H several months ago to help me get it home so I could have it and my other car at home. He never did.

I think giving things is one of his LL. My eyes are opening to this.

My goal is to start driving it every weekend starting this weekend.