Thanks Crazyville! Your comments have been helpful! It made me realize how truly had this has been on her. I just did not get it. I thought that being married was having someone there to support you no matter what. For better or worse. But I have realized that involving her in any of it has been such an emotional drain on her and a crushing burden to her.
I have also made peace with the fact that no matter what I do at this point she needs to look out for herself and her boys. If that means she needs to completly end our relationship then I need to support her decisions.
For now I keep living my life and as Rick said above have no expectations.
M-45 W-44 2D - 11&13 2SS - 11&17 Married 10/10/10 Bomb 3/5/12 Moved 5 houses away 4/20/12 Back together 9/12 Seperated 6/13 Divorce Final 11/13/13