My Story WAW due to Gaming Addiction

[twisted9999]

Today I finally went out and got a new wardrobe. I did it because I honestly do not fit in anything that i have now. They are all baggy and make me look sloppy. I have lost around 25 pounds and have built up some muscles so I am feeling good about my appearance.
Daughter lost her first tooth last night. My wife had called and told me that her 2 front bottom teeth needed to come out but she would not let her near her mouth. I had the 3 last night and after some talking to and convincing she finally let me tie a string around her tooth and pull it out. you should have seen her. I have never been so proud of her in all my life, she decided to be a big girl and overcome her fear and actually trusted in me to do something as scary as pull a tooth out...trust me this is traumatic to a 6 year old. I have never seen her so excited in a long time. It was like christmas morning to her she could hardly control her emotions. She must have went to the mirror and looked at her hole in her teeth at least 15 times in 1 hour. She could not wait to tell my wife and her mother and show all her friends. My wife was at a open house meeting at my kids school so i just sent her a text message letting her know. She didnt respond which was kinda weird but what can you do. I called this morning and talked to my daughter and the tooth fairy had gave her some money...god i hate how I miss these things and have to hear them over the phone.

As hard as this is on me I finally come to realize that this was the best thing that could have happened to me. If my wife had not asked to be separated i would still be living a miserable life where games were more important than my own family. A life where my relationship with my oldest daughter was not a father daughter relationship but more like a brother sister relationship where we always fight. I would still gut that hung over my jeans and flabby arms chest and stomach. Never in a hundred years would i ever consider taking up a hobby that i stopped 15 years ago (karate). And for the first time in my life I know that I can live alone and survive without the help of my wife. I pay bills, grocery shop, buy my own cloths, clean, cook, etc..things that i let my wife and mother in law do.

I truely feel like my life has finally started to turn around for the better and that the old me is truely gone for good. I never want to go back to that person. Have i beaten my gaming addiction? Who knows only time will tell but what i do know is that i can live in a house by myself with no one watching me and truely say that I have no desire to play a game. I can walk 5 feet infront of a gaming store in the mall and not even think about going in it.

I wish I could tell my wife how much I appreciate her for leaving me, for making me wake up from the long sleep I have been in. I wish I could thank her and tell her how this whole experience has impacted me for the positive but I know that right now that is probably not the best thing to do.

Does it still hurt? Everyday of my life mostly because she is not angry at me nor does she lash out at me and I feel she truely cares how I am doing and is feeling guilty for what she is putting me through. Is it getting easier? Sadly yes. Do I still love her? With all my heart. Do I need her to make me happy? No, but that does not mean I dont want her as a wife.