MrsD: I know what you mean about therapy....im looking forward to tonight. Mine was cancelled last week b/c the dr. had to be out of the office but i've got an appt. tonight that im looking forward to.
Its interesting that you talk about going from your best friend to someone who doesnt speak to you much. I feel the same way, but i've also started to recognize that on some level its just general loneliness isnt it? What I mean by that is that I always knew she was going to call when she left work, probably call if she stopped at the store, maybe call in the morning on the way to work and possibly a call around noon if one of us got the time to call the other. So now not only does she NOT call me, but im not calling her either, so its kind of a hole there in my communication ring.
I still talk to lots of friends, and have plenty of people that call and text on a daily basis, heck my job is in purchasing so people call me all day everyday trying to sell something so its not like I dont talk to others, but......how do I put this, the hole thats missing is that ONE person who cares. I know I felt this way a little before when we seperated years ago, like when my son isnt with me and I go home and the house is empty and you sit all night and the phone never rings you wonder if anyone cares. Truth is thats our own mind doing it to us, of course people care, but we've been in relationships or married so long that we've become accustomed to being 'checked on' and its uncomfortable when thats gone.
I think its much like anything else, you simply move past it and at some point 'this' whatever 'this' is becomes the new normal.
