Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

Hey LA, when we go to dinner alone, it is usually great. And I think it would be beneficially to us. And if we had been doing more if it before the bomb, we probably wouldn't have had the fight that led to the bomb. However, when he dropped the bomb, he told me that he did not want to go out on any dates with me, so I am scared to ask right now. I don't want to ask and have him say "When I told you I wanted a D, I told you I did not want to date you". I indirectly hinted around it at the concert I asked him about, which he said no to.

He did agree to a dinner in November. Other people will be there, but if he sees we have a good time, then maybe he will open his mind if he doesn't before then. Again, I think part of his confusion because he knows when we are getting along, things are great and we have a good time. His mind is battling that vs. the evil W.

No ILY since over the weekend. I haven't really said it to him either, but I do every so often. I am trying to show him that I am not continuing to be a b!tch to him after our confrontation on Monday, which the old me would have done. And I haven't brought it up or made a smart remark, which the old me would have done.

In the mornings, he does come by my chair and lets me give him a kiss. There is another way for him to get out the door if he wanted to. No real hugs. However, we really didn't do that before anyway. I don't think touch is one of his LLs. If he is in a bad mood, he doesn't want to be touched.

So, I still see some small things that look like they are in the right direction. I am trying not to be hypersensitive to his moods and wonder if it is because of me or the sitch, and get my mind going. Today he is in a lot of pain, so he is understandably a grouch.