Acc, thank you for sharing. From what you described, you were in a very dark place. I can see why it’s something that you will never forget. As you put it, you felt profound rejection but you survived. Hundreds of miles on your bike sound like a good thing to do. No wonder you dropped some pounds. I need to rememeber Arsene’s advice which is to remember the hopeful positive outcome.
I had to see W for a second today when she dropped off the kids, I acted “as if.” Nothing’s been mentioned about the spiteful message. You see, it bites and it’s a tough thing to accept. The only thing that slightly made it easier is the fact that it pretty much confirmed what I was thinking. It’s not like it was something that just came out of nowhere.
In terms of religion, it sounds like a mixed bag. Personally, I pray daily. I work in a smaller office and I am very thankful it’s very non pc. I consider my boss a friend, he’s an awesome guy. He’s a big black guy, 6’9 and an ex basketball player. He knows a fair amount about my sitch and he’s extremely religious. It’s really nice because every now and then he will say a very powerful prayer with me. I feel truly blessed to have him as a boss.
I know I am a mess right now but I will survive. I looked at my children before bedtime and thought about what Arsene said which is to have no expectations but still keep your eye on the positive outcome. Thanks guys!
