Not what marriage is to me, just the only connection I have to my H right now. I know it's not the "right way" to connect, but it's what I've been grasping onto.
Given what I have learned and what we have been through, from my POV, we will never be back to where we were before...
I have no timeline. H's IC said if I truly mean what I say then in 6 months I still will - seems to be his timeline...
I would love to see a MC together and any retreats I've seen are really far from where we live. But he won't do any of that if he's still in R with OW. So I wait, patiently...