Journaling today, but it'll be a short one, as nothing much has happened in the way of the sitch. I spent most of the day and night at home sick yesterday, but rallied to get to work today. Still feeling a bit under the weather, but better than yesterday.
One interesting thing happened last night/this morning... For our 1 year anniversary, I created a blog for W which detailed tons and tons of things that I love about her and us. Each blog post included a picture, a video, or a story which we shared and was very unique to us. She told me many times how sweet it was and how she hopes I never stop updating it... Clearly, after the whole WAW thing happened, I haven't updated the blog. However, when cleaning out my email's spam filter, I noticed that I've been getting updated "Traffic" updates on the blog... Well only two people in the world know about the blog, W and I, and the URL is really convoluted, so I was interested to see that on Sept. 3 (or three days after our last, kinda toxic, conversation and one day after she returned home from her vacation with her family and OM) she spent about 30 minutes looking through the site... I guess I'm not as "Out of sight out of Mind" as I feel sometimes...
I guess it was nice to see, but that obviously doesn't change anything. I'm keeping up with my "Going Dark" plan, continuing to GAL, working some of my 180s (while others are already natural to me) and focusing on how to keep bettering myself and stop spending so much time missing W. Some days I'm better at that than others!
