Yeah, I have been feeling really down about everything. I got rejected from 3 jobs in one week and that was pretty hard. Stuff with my Dad is pretty stressful although I am trying very hard to compartmentalise it. Joe has disappeared off the radar too, he has gone off to Ireland to visit his relatives but he has been pretty off radar anyway lately.
Still, I am trying to keep positive. Actually some positive things have come out of the stuff above, the money from the insurance came through from the burglary so that has eased my brokeness slightly. Also, not getting those jobs has really made me think about what I want to do next in terms of career and I am thinking of re-training as something, perhaps a probation officer (USA speak Parole officer I think!), or something in social work. I think this would suit me much better than going back into an office job. Also, it would help me living at home if I knew I was doing it for a greater cause instead of having no choice. And Joe being gone, well it is giving me the space to think about me rather than about him and me.
I am pretty down at the moment though, sunshine is just around the corner though right...
