Hi! Things are still going well. Wow, didn't think I'd be saying that.
Mockers--thanks for your continuing support! Trying to stay happy and fun around him, though I did return the thongs he bought for V-day for some bright yellow underwear. Need to replace the ratty u-wear we were supposed to do months ago for flylady!
Holding, I have spoken a bit with H about how it brings back bad memories. I don't know if he fully understands. He has major fears that I'm going to turn on him and tell him it is too much and to take a hike. I have trouble believing he feels that way when I have been so patient for all these months. The T said the biggest thing is to validate each other's thoughts, working on that. And it helps that H will just listen to my fears and it is a change for me to bring them up instead of my usual suffering in silence.
DB--you have been quiet--how is life with you?
Missing, I think I would be in big trouble if H read my posts. Not that I think I've been mean, but some serious venting going on in some past threads!
My inlaws are visiting this weekend. First time they have been here since this all started. To be honest, I still have the chip on my shoulder Ellie yelled at me for a few months back. I just struggle with the thought of them in my house when they just dropped out of sight (for me) when this all happened. Previous to this, it has always been give us a call if you ever need anything (my family lives 10 hours away), but their son takes a walk and nothing! I know I need to forgive them, but I'm not sure if I'm transferring my anger for H and his part of this to them. They aren't a huge part of our lives, so I shouldn't be so bent out of shape about this, but I'm finding it hard to let it go.
