It has been a pretty interesting weekend, XW tried to contact me over the weekend, she went to my aunt's house to deliver a car insurance letter, which is about 2 months old. As everybody in here says do not assume anything, but I guessed she was trying to make contact. I spend every weekend with my Mom therefore I found out about it until monday when I came back. None the less, it troubled me and my emotions went overboard, therefore I went to look for her at her work, she saw me and smiled. She literally run to meet me and hugged me, she said she has been thinking about me lately. We spoke very little, but she invited me to lunch. At lunch she told me OM has already bought her a house and will be moving within the week, she mentioned she does not wants that, and prefers to be by herself and my SS13 in a little apartment. She talked a lot about me, and how she compares OM to the me, and said he is a great provider and makes really good money, but falls short on what I have done for her. She remembers how we moved from a fall-apart trailer home to a little house, then to a bigger house, and finally to be on a real comfortable home. She sees all the struggles we have gone thru and prefers that to a life of luxury according to what she said. She also mentioned that OM is very nice when speaking on the phone, but that he is really jealous and for wathever little reason he is always talking crap about me (he doesn't even knows me). She said that it is a continuous fight and that she does not wants that. She said she does not want to live with me either again soon because of the same reason that we were fighting a lot before we separated. I agreed with her and said we will be struggling, and I will probably be full of insecurities. She said she needs to make a decision and comfront OM or stay with him and accept the life she is chosing. She said she does not wants to be misserable and live with a lot of commodities while she is not happy. I pray she makes the right decision for our and S13, whatever it is.
Other thing she mentioned is that when she gets her appartment that she wants to work on having a friendship in which we learn how to trust each other. I do not know if she is playing the part, but she is putting it like she is already making a choice of renting her own appartment, she said she has been working for 2 weeks only, and needs to save for the first month's rent. I honestly pray she will do this, and work on her self.
She apologized to me about been unfaithful and said she regrets not having the courage to fight our fight in the same side, and that her decisions were the wrong ones. I guess pastures are not as greener in the other side as they seemed!!
I guess that is it, and like a said a few days ago. There is that dim hope to see something change in her that will make me feed that little spark all over again. That will be her getting her own place..
