Hi Jackie ~ Thank you for your post on my thread yesterday. I wrote some to you there, but wnated to stop in and say hi here too. Hope today is going well.
I think the sabatoging is a normal part of what happens to some extent when a WAS moves home, just based on the reading I've done.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. You are doing a terriffic job and have been all along. Cut yourself a little slack every once in a while. Then, remind yourself of all the incredible positives with your M. It's amazing, Jackie.
If I let myself think for any length of time about what all has happened, or if I start to think about the last year in terms of how those who haven't been exposed to db principles would view the circumstances (How could you let him treat you that way? why would you ever take him back? etc.) then I begin to feel resentful pretty quickly. This pushes aside the most unbelievable and wonderful part of this last year - that my H is home.
That is great about H's ring and your Valentine's celebration!!!!!
You and your H seem to be making very steady progress. This is a tough time, trying to figure out how things will work best in your new M. Give yourself credit for doing a tremendous job and being very patient. The forgiving is tough, but you're already making progress here too. (((((((Jackie)))))))
Mockers2
"Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
Friedrich Nietzsche