Thanks kml
Suffering yes, the lying is maddening because how can I ever trust him again? I am planning on seeing a lawyer about what legal separation entails.

I talked to sons counselor today. He hates school and does the bare or less minimum. So I have to contact the teachers and get tutoring. I am going to try to stay through the end of this year at least. Your advice is true galing is necessary but hard right now. Not eating or sleeping well. Got a whopping big debt under both names because we got a better deal at my credit union. I will talk to lawyer about it.

My job is with a lady with alzheimers only one day a week and every other sat. The pay is great but being with her makes my depression worse. She is getting more ornery now. My husband is making comments like "oh it would be nice if you got more hours"
My counselor said maybe it's so he doesn't have to pay alot of alimony.

Not sure what I want to do but I don't think I want to caregive anymore. Maybe work at a hardware store cuz I like tools. Pay won't be that great though. supposed to try out for a play this week.