hi afa75....sorry for the numbness and sadness...you know i feel very similar lately too ....(((( ))))

despite everything this made me smile

I tried some meditation (new thing), and then all of a sudden I woke up. I'm not sure exactly what happened, but I fell asleep for about 10mins. Either I meditated too well, or my mind/ body shut down out of sheer exhaustion.

i tried meditation for the first time this summer too...and i also fell asleep! lol...i don't think that was the real point of it but at least i was relaxed enough to sleep without panic thoughts!

you are going to be ok, you know that right? You will be. we all will be. even this is not the best sitch for our kids, i know mine have helped me stay grounded and focused on growth, even in my darkest times.

((((( )))))

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home