Journalling- So things have not changed any. W is still in the house and has not mentioned anything about moving out. But I have not asked either. Really working on detachement and 180 changes. So as much as I want to ask her about R, I have not. Even though it is driving me nuts not knowing. Controlling I know. Really been struggling with the no physical touch and not be able to even kiss her goodnight. It has been 5 months since any sexual contact. With all the exercise and lifting weights that I have been doing it makes it harder to not be able to share this with the W. Does this get worse over time or do you lose these sexual feelings over time?
I have been doing better with my 180's still need to work on many. The one thing that worries me is that Detacement and pulling back, will this give her the idea that I do not care about her or that I have given up on her? Maybe this is what she wants but I wander if this makes it easier to make the moving out idea easier. I know I need to quit worring about this. It will not nor can I change her mind if this is what she is going to do.
